new beginnings

today i had closure. it has been a whirlwind of a week and i feel that i have grown as a person. i talked to and saw my ex-boyfriend this week. i think that is the first time i have referred to him as my ex-boyfriend. we had a coffee today together and got caught up on the last year or so of our lives. seemingly leaving out details of other people we may or may not have seen throughout the year out of respect. it was a good coffee.

i also decided i am done talking about another man that was in my life and hurt me incredibly badly. he lied and denied much of what we had, he back pedaled and emailed and tried to talk to me about all of it, but i am done. it was hard to not respond to his emails. but every day it gets easier. through this i have confided in and gained a wonderful friend. so i look at this as a positive. i have gained perspective and a new outlook.

so today is the last day that i speak of him. today is the last day i let him hurt my heart. and today is the first day that i choose me, above everything, i choose me.

"hear my song
it'll help you believe in tomorrow
hear my song
it'll show you the way you can shine
hear my song
it was made for the time
when you don't know where to go
listen to the song that i sing
you'll be fine"