family.

Thank you for the beautiful card. You have been in our thoughts too! Hope you are having a good Christmas! You have been and always will be our daughter. And we miss you a lot. Send me your cell # and we'll stay in touch. Love you.

"margaret, marry me so i can date you"

jeep guy

"its been a long december and there is reason to believe this year will be better than the last."

feeling good.

i will inspire. i will change the world.

i don't know how, but i will change the world. i will inspire others towards change and i will encourage them to change our world. it will be great. i know i am destined for better things. i have so much to give. now just to figure out how i am going to do it.

time to give back.

vacation

i wish i was on vacation. like an away vacation. perhaps there will be somewhere good to go next week.

i hear new york is nice this time of year, and i have never been.

or maybe somewhere warm.

hmmm.

even if rejection, i am still happy i took the risk.

Goodnight, to every little hour that you sleep tite
May it hold you through the winter of a long night
And keep you from the loneliness of yourself
Heart strung is your heart frayed and empty
Cause it's hard luck, when no one understands your love
It's unsung, and I say
Goodnight, my love, to every hour in every day
Goodnight, always, to all thats pure that's in your heart

-Smashing Pumpkins

sweating.

if something else ever made me feel this way, maybe i would be less scared. a little less vulnerable. a little less concerned if i am being selfish. a little less concerned. a little more ready to jump.

I don't regret...
but I cannot remember a time I felt complete happiness.
I look at the pictures and it all looks fake and forced.
Was that what it looked like to everyone else?
A glass house waiting to crash?
When it did break into little pieces were you all waiting to say I knew it all along?

while my logical mind realizes that this was a great learning experience
my heart tells me to be angry for the wasted years
my mind tells me this experience showed me what I really want
but my heart is saying at what cost?

am I a better person because of all of this?
I am a new person. I am creating my own path.

everyone said this time of year would be lonely for me.
"it's a long december, but there is reason to believe that this year will be better than the last." Counting Crows

learning to let go

learning to let go of you. i tried to fight it. i don't know what else to do. i guess its time to get over you.