I don't regret...
but I cannot remember a time I felt complete happiness.
I look at the pictures and it all looks fake and forced.
Was that what it looked like to everyone else?
A glass house waiting to crash?
When it did break into little pieces were you all waiting to say I knew it all along?

while my logical mind realizes that this was a great learning experience
my heart tells me to be angry for the wasted years
my mind tells me this experience showed me what I really want
but my heart is saying at what cost?

am I a better person because of all of this?
I am a new person. I am creating my own path.

everyone said this time of year would be lonely for me.
"it's a long december, but there is reason to believe that this year will be better than the last." Counting Crows